Bingeing/purging/starving has always given me a sense of empowerment. It gives me control and concentration. I have gained weight recently and determined to get back on track and reach my ultimate goals. I am determined to be the skinny one, I want to be beautiful, maybe I'll never have the face of Audrey Hepburn but I can certainly achieve her figure to a certain extent. I do think that it is our choice about what we do with our bodies.
Whether we want to nourish or destroy? But which is which?
“Never, never underestimate the power of desire. If you want to live badly enough, you can live. The great question, at least for me, was: How do I decide I want to live?”— Marya Hornbacher